Chapter 207 — Sickly Green
Purple Streets of Chang'an · Page 4 of 4
He turned it over and over in his mind, and for the first time in his life did not dare ask outright; he could only give a slight nod and say lightly, with a smile, "I understand"—yet he could not hide the defeat written all over his face.
Dou Yan's heart ached to see it, and she could not help explaining, "Once a woman marries, she must not only serve her husband and keep his concubines in order, but raise and teach the children as well—and in such things, diligence is by no means always rewarded as it deserves. I truly have no confidence I could do it well, and so I would rather flee from it and shirk my duty, selfishly. When the Seventh Madam arranged for Sister Ming to marry into the Wei family, I had long since noticed—I merely let the current carry the boat, seizing the chance to decline marriage with perfect justification. It is not that I do not wish to marry you!"
Was that true?
Song Yan was deeply doubtful.
Whenever he wished to be rid of someone, he would always first soothe them with gentle words.
"I understand!" A sudden desolation came over him, and an uncontrollable sorrow welled up from the depths of his heart. "Then—if there is anything, just tell me. I know the capital better than you do, and can get about more easily than you..." Gazing at the window lattice, which was gradually taking on a white gleam, he rose with a cold, distant expression and took his leave.
Dou Yan seemed once more to see the Embroidered Uniform Guard Chief Commissioner who held the world at arm's length.
Yet watching Song Yan's ramrod-straight back, which somehow made her feel how fragile he was, she steeled her heart and said nothing.
Song Yan, one foot already on the steps, could not help turning back.
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Resting tomorrow, double update, but I am a bit stuck. It is not that I do not know what to write next, but that I do not know from which angle to write it so that this story will seem more exciting and more gripping. The update times may be a little irregular—read in the evening, everyone; I expect you will be able to read two chapters at once.
o(n_n)o~
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